Monday, November 3, 2008
A live in relationship...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Being a Girl...
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
The girl who didnt want to grow up ....
My last year at School...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Back To Square One...Back to Love
Whats the difference between falling in love and marrying sumone???
U may fall out of love easily coz gettin into a relationship is relatively easy but maintaining it is very very hard.
(01.10.08)
Life is short n it is maybe just once we get to live it(I'm not sure I believe in re births)...So...its better to make the right choice n give no chance for regrets later...
N I'm sure for every Adam on earth, there's an Eve...For Every Krishna is born a Radha n A Laila for all Majnu's...to love eternally...till death and after...
Friday, September 26, 2008
HATE !!!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
A page frm my Life.......
Life is not…without adventure…U cannot live it without taking chances…U r not a leaf in the autumn wind…not a paper boat in a stream of water…to go where the wind takes u…U r an individual capable of taking decisions…n must be willing to take risks…A Ship in Harbour is safe,but that is not what ships are built for...
Don’t YOU think doing something which the world says is impossible…is a challenge worth taking up….
Maybe its coz the title of my blog is…about Life, I find myself writing all bout it and nothing else…Don know whether all this makes sense to the people who read it…I cud write pages bout Life(my view) n still not feel bored…I dunno how much u ppl can handle…
This is something I found interesting…Roshan had sent me this…
On finishing, however u discover undissolved sugar crystals settled at the bottom.Thats how Life is….We do not make any effort to value what is around or within us.So,look around , maybe the sweetness you are looking for is closer than you think…"
I value the people who have managed to touch my heart…in one way or the other, all these ppl have influenced me…the way I live…
“Value the people who have touched your life…coz you never know when they will walk out of your life and never….come back again…and we live Life only once…”
“Never explain yourself to anyone because…
The person who trusts you doesn’t need it and the person who does not trust you will not believe you anyway….”
Cool right? But the problem is I haven’t been able to follow all this in My Life…I jus don think practically whenevr I have a problem…
Read this once somewhere…A goal is a dream,but with a deadline…
This is an excerpt from The Long Road Home by Danielle Steel…
“Whatever L ife metes out to you, whatever it is ,I want you to understand that you are equal to it….God will not give you more than you can handle….And when you think you can bear no more…you must remember that you will Survive it, You must know that…."
I guess this is why I love books this much…Certain phrases,quotes jus touch my soul…they manage to strike me deep within…n it does changes my attitude bout certain things..changes my perspective…
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
My Life...
Monday, September 8, 2008
Another Post wthout A title...
Its bout someone special....in everyone's life....
An angel....
an angel of love,
mercy,
kindness,
n care....
Its sumone who always cares...n will be there no matter what........
This is what I believe...
Mother's are God's little angels...Its jus that u cannot see the wings and the halo....
One day I saw in my dream…
A very beautiful person…
With a face so lovely
And eyes so kind,
Her hands beckoning me…
I din move…didn’t even dare to breathe,
Lest the image disappear…
I moved nearer n
She hugged me tight,
Caressed my head,
N held me close…
I felt so secure…
Safe n warm…
Within her hold…
She kissed the top of my head…
And whispered to me…
Just 3 words…
I love you…
N then suddenly I woke up…
I looked around n saw no one
I was sad…
Wanting to see her,jus once more…
I closed my eyes…
Trying to remember…
What she told me…
And then I saw in the distance…
The vision from my dream…
My very own angel,
Coming towards me..
With a smile on her lips…
N her hands held out…
She kissed me n hugged me hard…
N I sat still..wanting to be there,
In her hands forever…
I didn’t realize all along,
It was you…….. my mother…
The angel God had sent…
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Today 04.09.08....
My days of clg life are numbered now...Its jus 4 a few more days...the joy of being a student...You jus hav one duty - n that's to study which ppl normally don't,except on the day b4 the exam....As i've told before...no responsibity....
Responsibilty,tension,worries,career....all begins after this....U enter into the BIG BAD World outside n u'll find urself to be alone...all around u will be strange faces...runnin around in a hurry...all will be busy...No one will hav time 4 anyone else in this world...It will seem horrible at first but I guess u get into the flow.... U begin to move bout like eveyone else...
It's hard not to be selfish in this world..bcoz thats how ppl seem to survive.....The Survival of The Fittest...Darwin was correct....Sincere,honest n hard working ppl do not have stand of their own,they live n survive by luck...But in the competition called Life,only the best fit can thrive....
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
The Void...
Its always there... whatever I do,whenevr...I can feel it....
I am never truly happy...there is this one hole in my heart that holds back my smile...
There is guilt....there is pain...there is sorrow...
4 what I do not know...4 whom I do not know...n Why i do not know.......For reasons I cannot fathom....
It hurts......hurts a lot.....
when i think of the past....of the memories hidden deep wthn my heart.......
of the people I ve hurt,
of the promises I ve broken,
n of the trust I ve betrayed........
The broken heart.....the falling tears........the pain so sharp it pierces through....
a dull pain.......so intense....searin thru...Burning...........
Where will i seek refuge? To whom will I ask 4 Forgiveness.......How will I repent???
I fear jus one thing........
LOVE
........it can overcome anythin in this world.........
A person wth love in his eyes can move ur heart.......
Be wary of Love....It always Hurts.........whatevr ppl say.......
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Regret n Remorse...
It is entirely impossible but doesn't everyone regret atleast one action or word in their lifetime???U wish so badly u hadn't done that or spoken to sumone like that...or hurt sumone's feelings.....
It happens a lot to me....
Today in this post of mine I say Sorry from the bottom of my heart to all people I ve hurt knowingly or unknowingly.....I'm sorry...Its a sort of apology...I don know if the people I say this to, read my blog...but this is for them....
But since I still firmly believe that everything in life happens 4 a reason,I hav nothing to worry bout right? All this was destined to happen....hmmm...I guess so...I'm so depressed today,that's behind this stupid post...Hope to rite a better one next time....
Friday, August 29, 2008
Things I'd like to do this Lifetime...
Wish No 1...
To visit the Louvre Museum at Paris...(the inspiration n credit goes to Dan Brown)
Wish No 2....
Is to write a book,not a best seller but atleast my friends must read that or my feelings will get hurt,mind u guys...
Wish No 3...
Buy dresses in all shades of Blue...electric blue,midnight blue n sky blue...
Wish No 4...
I wish I wud never hav to set foot in America...I hate the place...
Wish No 5...
Spend a nite under the sky,watchin stars all nite...not alone,I'd be scared.
Wish No 6...
Do something worthwhile...sumthin that brings good to mankind...not 4 fame or money but 4 my conscience,4 contentment n satisfaction that when I leave this world...I can say proudly that I have been here 4 a reason...
Wish No 7....
Make my mother the happiest person on Earth..n make her proud of me sumday...
The list will go on.... next wishes,next post...
The Day I Quit Orkutting...
I love makin friends,chattin wth them n scrappin them but during my last hols,Orkut become sumthin more to me...It was always being online,checkin 4 scraps...goin thru friends profiles....
The day I quit orkuttin was when I realized It was becomin more of an Obsession....it was Orkut day n nite...
N I'm really happy I was able to overcome my obsession by jus comin out of it...Evn though I am tempted to join again..u know there's that naggin doubt in my mind...a subconcious thought that says...Don let anythin have control over u...Don let anythin in life be an Obsession...
I think this is true in every case...Whatevr we do,it must not become an Obsession...
n we must not giv priority in life 4 those things which r optional in life...
Another piece of advice...
Don let someone be a priority in your life when u r just an option in theirs...
(I do practice what i preach..)
This is 4 my dear friends who feel they hav lost the love of their lives n r destined to live wthout them...True love is completely givin first priority to each other,no matter what...
Oh my God !!! where did I start n where did I end up???completely different topics...anyway...so where was I???
Yes,Orkut...so maybe I was a coward to run away n hide so that I ll not have the tendency to log in to orkut again but I felt better once I did that...n there ends my post 4 the day...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
School Life...
I ve had my fill of skools n skool frendz....havin got a chance to study in 8 schools in my 12 yrs of primary education(now that I'm into my master's , all that seems to be primary) n each of the schools teachin me sumthings in life...lots of techers,scores of friends...I've relished every single day I've gone to school,evn the exams coz xams at this level r such a drag...3 hours n 100 marks n epics to write...
The recess,play time n the assembly...I guess I remember my 11 n 12 th classes more than any thing else but my Years at De Paul,Kalpetta n Bhavan's,Calicut.....r worth saying...De Paul was the best-its true,guys....my concept of an ideal school life....
Class X was boring...studies,tution,tension,first boards....I thought they wud kill me...
What did one know of the complexities of life then??? of Guys n gals(boys n girls then)...of love??? We respected our teachers,listened to them,did homework,played crazy games...wrote exams,brought parents to PTA meetings?(atcually we din bring them,they came)...n wore smart uniforms....We were actually scared of exams n used to study though not daily...Nowadays I wait 4 the study hols to open my books...
My best memories r those of recitations n elecutions n all culturals...Annual days,Christmas celebrations,Onam pookalams...
Life sure was simple then....
But then there was no bunkin classes,no gang of friends to head to the canteen with,no gals to gossip with and of course....no guys to flirt with. All that came wth college...A sample of the Life outside...of the real World where u r destined to spent the rest of ur life time...
The innocence was lost,the cute smile lost......eyes full of hope...light....n joy.... all lost forever....
Now the eyes r clouded...the twinkle in the eyes in lost,the spring in the steps is lost...I no longer walk...I run...always in a hurry....there is tension always...what to do next,where to go next n whom to call next....Studies,Jobs,Family,Responsibilities.......on those tiny shoulders which once carried a bag full of books...
LOVE - JUS A 4 LETTER WORD
So,what exactly is Love??? Wanna hear my definition..........
Well,to love someone is to care....so much 4 him/her evn more than yourself...u find urself living 4 a person...livin to see him/her smile...to love someone is to live 4 them...
I believe that Love is divine...It is not that u can love only a person at a time...We all love many people but in different ways n wth different intensities...n once u love a person there is no sayin no to it...the love goes on...n on...till ur last breath...no matter whether u want it or not...
Love
Is
For
Ever
And love is also bout...
Never expectin anythin,
Never demandin anythin,
and Never being possesive...bcoz it always spoils things...as far as I know...
Sharing n caring 4 each other is what Love is truly about...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Maybe gals r wiser in this area...Atleast the gals I know never reveal their true feelings unless they get to know a person well...They do flirt like guys but hav failed to get caught,lost in blind love n then atlast stop believin in love...
I know a certain guy who claims to have had his way wth girls...never fallen in love but I always tell him...never be so confident,tera number aayega...One day U too will see the world with eyes dripping wth admiration 4 a certain person...
Chances & Choices...
Its your actions that matter...your words that count...It is u who hold the reins...watched over by God...who holds ur hand n helps u to walk...catches u while u fall...n is beside u thru out...
I've heard that Life is all bout being able to FORGET n FORGIVE...I don know if everyone is able to do it but I practice it as much as possible as this is what I tend to tell others...But is this always possible??? I don know for sure...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Today is an unexpected holiday for me...A guy in my college met with an accident n he's gone...jus like that...The least the college authorities cud do is to declare a holiday today...I haven seen this guy nor do I know who he is...but I pray 4 his soul now...Let him Rest in peace...
This is Life,right??? very very unexpected...one moment u r here n the next...Khuda jaane??? Is there somethin u can guarentee....there is no guarentee to anything on earth...So,Its my policy to enjoy while I can...Life's too short to think bout it n repent later....Whatever I do,I ll never giv myself a chance to regret it...I am gonna keep myself that busy that I ll never time to think n regret things done...But then I am a person who always procrastinates...n is very very lazy...so most of the time I ll be sittin n day dreamin n repenting,countin my losses...regretin things...Stuff I did,said n thought....
Friday, August 8, 2008
I consider myself lucky to have few but great friends...It is this week I learnt the truth that havin many friends doesn't count,its those who care that counts...
A testi to the greatest of all relationships.......Friendship...Its pure,special n ........ somethin more...
Love u all,my dear friends......
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
N most of the books I read end on a happy note…All is usually well…Fairy tales r the best…with superb endings…”and they lived happily ever after”…but, my personal opinion is that all authors r great…their ability to keep a person involved n interested 4 such a long period is amazing…
Y do ppl dream??? Do all dreams come true??? If they don, then y do ppl dream? If they can’t make their dream come true…they shouldn’t dream…
What is attachment??? What r Relationships??? Can anyone tell me the answer to this??? What is the unseen force of bonding btwn 2 individuals…be it a mother and a child, a child n his siblings, friends…a husband n a wife??? What is the power that attracts them n holds them together???
Sunday, July 13, 2008
I had a hellish Xperience in class when my sir taught us to dissect a chick embryo....Yuck!!! Scooping out its retinal cells,brain n pluckin out its kidneys...jus mind blowing...I tried not to puke and ended up crying instead...I was a vegeterian till the day and now I'm a vegan...no more milk,cheese n stuff..I cant imagine how ppl manage to each chicken n beef n pork???
I cant think of the day when i myself would have to do the practicals...I'd hav to do that blindfolded...
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
It is true that words once spoken cannot be taken back…n words always go right to their destination…they hurt…they heal…they can make u feel rotten n sumtimes better…It is always the choice of words which is important…
I like being in control over my own life…Everyone else. KEEP OUT…Trespassers will be ignored…
A friend told me…”Everythin in life has a reason”…n isn’t it true…in every sense…n Whatevr happens to you is always 4 ur own good…
Why do I succumb to my temptations…while clearly knowin I’m gonna get into trouble sooner or later??? Y do I still find myself finding innumerable excuses 4 my faults???
Friday, June 13, 2008
Religion
Isn’t the Power they all believe in..hav faith in…the same??? Wont Allah listen to what I hav to say? Wont He listen to me if I pray to him??? Wont Jesus ???
I still havn’t decided whether I believe in Idol worship…but I believe that God is everywhere…within Me…U n everyone else…He is the goodness in us…He is the Love in us….We jus create idols to reinforce the idea of existence of God…
This is something I love…
“I love my God because he gives me the freedom to deny him..”-Rabindranath Tagore…
God is not going to punish me if I don pray…atleast I don think so…Or else how wud the atheists live in this world???
My current religion is HUMANITY…the religion all on earth belong to…believe in…
The post without a titile....
This is my e-diary…
The Mad Mad world of Lakshmi Mohan…btb, who is Lakshmi Mohan??? Its jus that the world knows her like that…u go ask randomly to a few hundred ppl in the world if they know Lakshmi Mohan…U won get a Positive response of evn 1%...
There are millions of ppl in the world…u see ppl walkin out, workin, singin, dancing…involved in monotonous routines all around there…there r in the least bothered bout what goes about in the world around them…Its jus being born…complete 60-80 yrs of LIFE on Earth n leave…to where, u may ask…evn I hope to find an answer to it someday….which makes me come to this point…Is there Life after Death??? R u given a chance to re-do ur mistakes???