Monday, November 3, 2008

A live in relationship...

I dont know what made me choose such a topic...
But then as no one is going to question me on why I chose to write on this topic.....I m gonna write on Live-in relationships...

What do you think of Live in relationships???
This is the definition i got from answers.com... It has been termed differently...Cohabitation...
"A living arrangement in which an unmarried couple live together in a long-term relationship that resembles a marriage."
Note that point...resembles a marriage...

Then what exactly is the difference between a live-in and a marriage???

People say its commitment...but dont live-ins have an element of committment??? U don walk into ur home one day to see ur partner gone...u expect him/her to be there for u...

A live in relationship essentially lacks a legal document which binds people together...

I ve heard ppl say in a live in, u can get out of the relationship as and when u like...I mean..no hassles...no chains...
But that is simplified evn in wedlock by the concept of divorce...It is legalized separation as a break off in a relationship...

Is there full commitment in a live-in??? I don know...What if the 2 find out they were'nt made for each other n decide to move out...Won this little thought creep into their minds everytime they r together??? N will that giv them the satisfication of a long term committed relationship???If it does..then y do ppl marry at all??? After years of living together, couples marry..legalize the relationship...to have kids, they say....

Is there security in a live-in??? Okay, 2 people are comfortable in each other's company... n then there is the issue of fidelity...If there is no surety of 2 ppl eventually marrying,then will they remain faithful to each other???

But wats the point in makin a big issue out of live-in's when u can easily get married and get a divorce once u find the match is not compatible....
And a trial run...its demeaning...

Like my friend said...
"but i kinda belive that trying on a new dress is not the best way to pick the best one..u jus have to trust ur instincts n buy it..it may be tight or loose but its wat u liked"
(These words came frm my friend Nitz(formerly The Devil) -I loved those words of his and I m puttin them here with his permission....)

As far as I am concerned...live ins are not a substitute to marriage and should not be taken as lightly as a date....People who are scared of commitment cannot make a live-in relation successful either...
I know my whole post sounds ridiculous...Do bear with me...When i started writin this post,I was actually okay with the idea of a live-in...although in a country like ours with its people full of morals,ethics and values...It seems impossible that one day Live-in relationships wud become acceptable...
I had initially thot of takin an unbiased stand...But as I began thinkin of the idea...there seemed no basis for its existance...Now the whole idea of a live in seems foolish to me...

"It is explained that all relationships require a little give and take. This is untrue...Any partnership demands that we give and give and give and at the last, as we flop into our graves exhausted,we are told that we didn't give enough."- Quentin Crisp.


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Being a Girl...

I love being a female....

I mean...i think its the best thing thats happened to me...

Being a girl...
(I don say being a guy isnt fun...but a girls's life is ... more interesting...as far as i am concerned)

a daughter....

a wife...

and most importantly a mother....What would'nt i give to be a mother??? It is the most responsible job a person can get...maybe not the most rewarding though... 

As a young girl, I often used to say it wasnt fair...boys have all the fun...but now while thinking of it...a girl's life isnt bad at all...

This is something I love...
"Girls are so queer you never know what they mean. They say No when they mean Yes, and drive a man out of his wits for the fun of it.Louisa May Alcott

A guy can never understand a girl's mind...Its too complex that even she does not understand it fully, then how can others????

I do agree girls are'nt perfect...Where else can one see the eternal jealous streak...the non-stop gossiping...but they rn't that bad either...I turn into a fierce feminist whenever anyone speaks something demeaning women...
What all those male chauvanists dont realize is that it needed a woman to bring them into this world... 

Havent u heard behind every successful man lies a woman...its true...

I managed to find an interestin article on this topic...http://exora.wordpress.com/2005/10/27/what-lies-behind-every-successful-man/

I loved being a girl...but I am not a little girl anymore....I'm a woman...a lady...n i hope a sophisticated one at that...

"You may chisel a boy into shape, as you would a rock, or hammer him into it, if he be of a better kind, as you would a piece of bronze. But you cannot hammer a girl into anything. She grows as a flower does.John Ruskin

And womanhood is full of responsibilities...duties...to be done...to perfection...
I'm entering that stage in my life when all I can do is jus turn back n smile.... at my childhood days...those days are gone...gone for ever...n how much ever I try I cant get them back...

"There is always one moment in childhood when the door opens and lets the future in.Deepak Chopra

My future lies before me...The life of a grown up little girl.....It is cloudy, but I am searching for that silver lining...maybe it holds something which will surpass even my wildest dreams...

N.B: All these wonderful quotes have been plagiarised frm answers.com...where I find answers to all my queries...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The girl who didnt want to grow up ....

26.10.08

I'm gonna tel u a story...bout a girl who hated growing up...
She was scared...scared to grow old..to live Life...
She hated growing up coz she knew one day she wud have to leave the security of her home...the comfy nest...where all loved her...fussed over her...n always made her feel...special...

She din want to outgrow her dolls...the fairy tales...She wished she could remain a tiny girl for ever...
without ever having to know the complexities of life...the pain, tensions and of course...responsibility...

Now she wishes she could go on studying thru out her life...coz thts one thing that doesnt need much effort...Its the golden period of one's life...jus studying...n some else takes care of the rest for u..

She does not want to go on with life...she jus wants to stop life the way it is now...with all her loved ones in her heart...She is happy now...but all good things do not last for ever...if she cud stop things from going on...leave things as they are...maybe she wudnt have to worry bout the future...

02.11.08

I am in a condition where I wish I wasnt born at all...Life sucks!!!!!
I really don wish to go forward in life...I ve had enuff for a lifetime...I'm too scared to take risks...I don want to find out what Life has in store for me....

My last year at School...

Or rather My life when I was 16...I completed my XII when I was 16...young genius...

Well...so my XI n XII standard...at KV...They were the best of my schooling years...not in the innocent childish way..but it was fun...N i miss my School days terribly....Do wish I cud back to school once again...Wish the kids at School now hear this...they wud think I am crazy...but as always the grass looks greener from the other side...Entering college,I ve been thinking of School as a heaven of some sort...

School....assembly...uniform...wow...teachers,discipline...n .....friends... XII standard brought me close to people than ever before...I was beginning to depend on friends...Till then it was all amma,amma for everything but in those yrs of my life...friends started playing an important role..I began calling friends...evn aftr being with them the whole day,going out with them...then...combined study...that was terrific...non-stop blabbering,but it did some good...I always used to study after I reached home thinking of the time I had wasted.
XII was a turning point in my Life...when friends became an indispensible part of my life...n as long as I live...I ll always cherish the moments I have spent with them...our conversation was mostly thru fone...
Then there were the introduction to wat ppl call guys...guys attracted to gals...proposals...rejections...God...what did I know of Love in those days????
I always remember trying to run away and hide whenever a certain guy who claimed to be in love with me...came to the scene...I used to run away from him...not scared...but...I dunno why????? Maybe I din want to hear what he had to say to me... If I get a chance to see him later in life, I wud Love to talk to him atleast once coz after he said he loved me,I had not spoken to him,not for the whole 2 yrs.....All that seems so silly now...

I had 2 friends...best friends...as I call them...I have only had these 2 called by this name n never again in my life is anyone gonna replace them...Its jus like that...I cant think of calling anyone else my best Friends...Well these two were...jus awesome...friends I loved....loved with all my heart..actually thinkin of that..it should be love...friends I love...
They knew me...the real me....more than anyone else...I shared everything...I shared my thoughts,feelings....my life...They was nothing they din know about me...

It was a phase of my life....the best ever...
But.... things change... people change... their attitude changes... their priorities change...
n soon we began realizing that we had little time...for each other...after skool...n fresh into college...new things to be learnt....new friends to be made...We did keep in touch...talkin,talkin,talkin...but some how...we never actually know how...there came sumthing btwn us...the distance btwn us...the time...
We still talk....in between the hectic schedules each one of us have... n I am t
he happiest person on Earth when I talk to these friends of mine...I feel young again...(Both of these friends are working now)...n maybe once Later....later in life...I wish we could get back together....like the little kids we once were...sharing the innocence of youth...

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Back To Square One...Back to Love

Whats the difference between falling in love and marrying sumone???

 As far as i know ppl see both as completely different cases.Majority of the people I know don think that the people they love are the ones they intend to marry...Falling in love is easy,telling sumone u love....but Marriage is a completely different situation...It means lifelong committment,understanding and obviously love.

U may fall out of love easily coz gettin into a relationship is relatively easy but maintaining it is very very hard. 

 U can have a crush on anyone cute...get infatuated but the real thing is....quite different...Its one thing to hang around with sumone cool but to spent a lifetime with them wud sometimes bore you...

(01.10.08)

 Physical attraction is not to be misunderstood with love...Physical love is just passion...and it cannot be taken for granted... coz people change..their interests change...To love is with the heart and all the rest will follow... 

 LOVE deals with FANTASY,LIFE IS REALITY...

 People want some one nice, some one kind...lovable,understanding n most of all a good listener. I would prefer sumone with kind eyes...ones with a twinkle in their eyes...coz i believe that eyes speak out whats in ur heart...I always speak to people lookin at their eyes n i judge people by their eyes...Eyes always speak the truth...So be wary when u lie to me...

 People want partnes who wud make them feel secure...who they r comfortable with...at ease always...Its the feel free factor...Partners who do not dominate...allow them to be independent...mutually respect each others opinion n ideas... 

Life is short n it is maybe just once we get to live it(I'm not sure I believe in re births)...So...its better to make the right choice n give no chance for regrets later...

N I'm sure for every Adam on earth, there's an Eve...For Every Krishna is born a Radha n A Laila for all Majnu's...to love eternally...till death and after...

 

Friday, September 26, 2008

HATE !!!

I know hate is a strong word...too strong with lots of meaning contained in it.
I do not use that word often n almost never when i speak of people. And I often tend to substitute the word...using one of lesser significance...despise,detest....

But circumstances arise...when I think I hate someone...When sumone does something I would never even think of ever doing,not even in my dreams...If it affects me or not...I develop an instant dislike 4 the person...I ve never told anyone I hate them ever in my life but there have been people who double-crossed me,used me,cheated me...Will the God in heaven punish 'em all??? I really don know...4 all they hav done to me...

In that case,will I be punished if knowingly or unknowingly I ve hurt people????? I believe that we get paid for all our actions...
A good deed never goes unrewarded and an evil one never goes unpunished...sooner or later...People get the results of their actions...

I hate people who speak behind my back...If they hav got sumthin to tel me,they should come n tel me n not when i am not there...
I hate selfish people....who jus think only of themselves....n no one else in the world.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

A page frm my Life.......

Life is not…without adventure…U cannot live it without taking chances…U r not a leaf in the autumn wind…not a paper boat in a stream of water…to go where the wind takes u…U r an individual capable of taking decisions…n must be willing to take risks…A Ship in Harbour is safe,but that is not what ships are built for...

 To walk n discover paths untrodden..find out where it leads to…

Don’t YOU think doing something which the world says is impossible…is a challenge worth taking up….

 

Maybe its coz the title of my blog is…about Life, I find myself writing all bout it and nothing else…Don know whether all this makes sense to the people who read it…I cud write pages bout Life(my view) n still not feel bored…I dunno how much u ppl can handle…

 

This is something I found interesting…Roshan had sent me this…

 “Life is like having a cup of coffee…You sit by the window, lift the cup, take a careless sip and find no sugar…Too lazy to go for the sugar, you somehow manage with that sugarless cup..

On finishing, however u discover undissolved sugar crystals settled at the bottom.Thats how Life is….We do not make any effort to value what is around or within us.So,look around , maybe the sweetness you are looking for is closer than you think…"

 I never look around…I go searching for better people,better friends and better things…everything…n never realize that ppl who mattered were just beside me…waiting for me to notice them…

 

I value the people who have managed to touch my heart…in one way or the other, all these ppl have influenced me…the way I live…

“Value the people who have touched your life…coz you never know when they will walk out of your life and never….come back again…and we live Life only once…”

 Another interesting piece of quote…

“Never explain yourself to anyone because…

The person who trusts you doesn’t need it and the person who does not trust you will not believe you anyway….”

Cool right? But the problem is I haven’t been able to follow all this in My Life…I jus don think practically whenevr I have a problem…

 I am a person who lives on dreams….I dream , dream a lot…Dunno whether my dreams come true or not…but there’s nothing wrong in it, rite…I ll keep on dreaming till one of my wishes comes true…n then I ll keep on dreamin again…If one can come true, why cant the rest of them???

Read this once somewhere…A goal is a dream,but with a deadline…

 

This is an excerpt from The Long Road Home by Danielle Steel

                        “Whatever L ife metes out to you, whatever it is ,I want you to understand that you are equal to it….God will not give you more than you can handle….And when you think you can bear no more…you must remember that you will Survive it, You must know that…."

 

I guess this is why I love books this much…Certain phrases,quotes jus touch my soul…they manage to strike me deep within…n it does changes my attitude bout certain things..changes my perspective…

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

My Life...

Everything makes sense now...it does...Thats y I deleted the post bout the void...The void isn't there as b4...I am growin up,learnin LIFE....My life was a jumble-a jigsaw puzzle till now...
but now every piece is fallin in place...I'm able to arrange them all and look at my Life-it has a new meaning...a new look...

It was my perspective which was faulty...the
 way I viewed things....I changed my angle of viewing things n Hey Presto!!! Life suddenly seems brighter...

I still believe wth evn more sureity what a frnd told me..."Everything in life happens 4 a reason"...Its the ultimate truth...

I've finally succeeded in gettin sum
 things out of my system...guilt,pain,remorse n regret...
Its not that I do not regret certain actions n words spoken but I wish to believe that all was for good...

and whatevr the pic at the bottom of my blog says is true...We all r angels...in one way or the other to sumone...
You hav angels all around u...guiding u onto the right path,helpin u out...They might be ppl u see around u everyday...u jus don realize their importance in ur life...

Anyone and everyone who helps u in time of need is an angel sent by God especially 4 u...to sort things out n to let u know that He cares...make u aware of His presence...

God teaches us lessons thru encounters wth different ppl...
Many lessons we learn r not easy but in the end,the wisdom we acquire is priceless...Each experience leaves u feeling wealthier in terms of Wisdom...U learn not to repeat the same mistakes again...

Whenevr I feel stranded,lonely,depressed...help comes in many ways...God sents angels...My mother has been the best one ever...but now I find strange,unexpected faces...b4 me...helpin me out....The Dark Knight N the Devil r worth mentionin here....

Thank u God for lettin me know I'm not alone...that U care...Thru these wonderful Angels....n thank u dear angels 4 makin my life brighter...for makin it seem worth living....

Monday, September 8, 2008

Another Post wthout A title...

Enuff of Love,I swear I won speak of it in my following
 posts...lemme find sumthin better to talk upon....


Its bout someone special....in everyone's life....


An angel....


an angel of love,

 mercy,

kindness,

n care....


Its sumone who always cares...n will be there no matter what........

This is what I believe...

Mother's are God's little angels...Its jus that u cannot see the wings and the halo....



One day I saw in my dream…

A very beautiful person…

With a face so lovely

And eyes so kind,

Her hands beckoning me…

 

I din move…didn’t even dare to breathe,

Lest the image disappear…

 

I moved nearer n

She hugged me tight,

Caressed my head,

N held me close…

 

I felt so secure…

Safe n warm…

Within her hold…

She kissed the top of my head…

And whispered to me…

Just 3 words…

I love you…

 

N then suddenly I woke up…

I looked around n saw no one

I was sad…

Wanting to see her,jus once more…

 I closed my eyes…

Trying to remember…

What she told me…

 

And then I saw in the distance…

The vision from my dream…

 

My very own angel,

Coming towards me..

With a smile on her lips…

N her hands held out…

 

She kissed me n hugged me hard…

N I sat still..wanting to be there,

In her hands forever…

 

I didn’t realize all along,

It was you…….. my mother

The angel God had sent…

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Today 04.09.08....




Today we celebrated Onam at the clg...Pookalam,sadhya,all gals in Kasavu Saree n guys with mundu...I din bother to drape a saree,wore my Brand new Blue (turqoiuse blue) salwar(a part of a wish fulfilled)...We had a gr8 pookalam,ll try to post its foto as soon as i manage to get it onto the system... Took loads of fotos...After all this is the last time I ll be celebrating Onam this way wth Friendz...college mates...

My days of clg life are numbered now...Its jus 4 a few more days...the joy of being a student...You jus hav one duty - n that's to study which ppl normally don't,except on the day b4 the exam....As i've told before...no responsibity....

Responsibilty,tension,worries,career....all begins after this....U enter into the BIG BAD World outside n u'll find urself to be alone...all around u will be strange faces...runnin around in a hurry...all will be busy...No one will hav time 4 anyone else in this world...It will seem horrible at first but I guess u get into the flow.... U begin to move bout like eveyone else...

It's hard not to be selfish in this world..bcoz thats how ppl seem to survive.....The Survival of The Fittest...Darwin was correct....Sincere,honest n hard working ppl do not have stand of their own,they live n survive by luck...But in the competition called Life,only the best fit can thrive....

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

The Void...

There's a void.. an emptiness within me...

Its always there... whatever I do,whenevr...I can feel it....

I am never truly happy...there is this one hole in my heart that holds back my smile...

There is guilt....there is pain...there is sorrow...

4 what I do not know...4 whom I do not know...n Why i do not know.......For reasons I cannot fathom....

It hurts......hurts a lot.....

when i think of the past....of the memories hidden deep wthn my heart.......

of the people I ve hurt,

of the promises I ve broken,

n of the trust I ve betrayed........

The broken heart.....the falling tears........the pain so sharp it pierces through....

a dull pain.......so intense....searin thru...Burning...........

Where will i seek refuge? To whom will I ask 4 Forgiveness.......How will I repent???

I fear jus one thing........
LOVE
........it can overcome anythin in this world.........

A person wth love in his eyes can move ur heart.......

Be wary of Love....It always Hurts.........whatevr ppl say.......

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Regret n Remorse...


There r people (I was one wth the same opinion) who say we must live Life in such a way that we must never live to regret things we did...but u know there r certain moments when one wishes if u had the ability to change sum things...go back in time n alter some decisions which seemed right to u then....
It is entirely impossible but doesn't everyone regret atleast one action or word in their lifetime???U wish so badly u hadn't done that or spoken to sumone like that...or hurt sumone's feelings.....
It happens a lot to me....
Today in this post of mine I say Sorry from the bottom of my heart to all people I ve hurt knowingly or unknowingly.....I'm sorry...Its a sort of apology...I don know if the people I say this to, read my blog...but this is for them....
But since I still firmly believe that everything in life happens 4 a reason,I hav nothing to worry bout right? All this was destined to happen....hmmm...I guess so...I'm so depressed today,that's behind this stupid post...Hope to rite a better one next time....

Friday, August 29, 2008

Things I'd like to do this Lifetime...



Before I die...there r certain things I'd love to accomplish...no,there's nothin like I'd love to fly n go to the moon..these r quite practical wishes...but only God knows how far I can be able to make them come true....

Wish No 1...
To visit the Louvre Museum at Paris...(the inspiration n credit goes to Dan Brown)
Wish No 2....
Is to write a book,not a best seller but atleast my friends must read that or my feelings will get hurt,mind u guys...
Wish No 3...
Buy dresses in all shades of Blue...electric blue,midnight blue n sky blue...
Wish No 4...
I wish I wud never hav to set foot in America...I hate the place...
Wish No 5...
Spend a nite under the sky,watchin stars all nite...not alone,I'd be scared.
Wish No 6...
Do something worthwhile...sumthin that brings good to mankind...not 4 fame or money but 4 my conscience,4 contentment n satisfaction that when I leave this world...I can say proudly that I have been here 4 a reason...
Wish No 7....
Make my mother the happiest person on Earth..n make her proud of me sumday...

The list will go on.... next wishes,next post...

The Day I Quit Orkutting...

I know it sounds as If I ve given up something,sumthin dangerous such as smokin but as far as I am concerned,Orkut was somethin like that to me...An addiction...

I love makin friends,chattin wth them n scrappin them but during my last hols,Orkut become sumthin more to me...It was always being online,checkin 4 scraps...goin thru friends profiles....
The day I quit orkuttin was when I realized It was becomin more of an Obsession....it was Orkut day n nite...
N I'm really happy I was able to overcome my obsession by jus comin out of it...Evn though I am tempted to join again..u know there's that naggin doubt in my mind...a subconcious thought that says...Don let anythin have control over u...Don let anythin in life be an Obsession...

I think this is true in every case...Whatevr we do,it must not become an Obsession...
n we must not giv priority in life 4 those things which r optional in life...
Another piece of advice...
Don let someone be a priority in your life when u r just an option in theirs...
(I do practice what i preach..)
This is 4 my dear friends who feel they hav lost the love of their lives n r destined to live wthout them...True love is completely givin first priority to each other,no matter what...
Oh my God !!! where did I start n where did I end up???completely different topics...anyway...so where was I???
Yes,Orkut...so maybe I was a coward to run away n hide so that I ll not have the tendency to log in to orkut again but I felt better once I did that...n there ends my post 4 the day...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

School Life...

Skool life was real Fun....That was Life...in every sense meaningful,interesting n enjoyable...I've enjoyed every moment of it n regret havin had to grow up...Life was easy when I was a kid...no unnecessary tensions...problems...a care-free life... Life was like a leaf in the autumn wind....

I ve had my fill of skools n skool frendz....havin got a chance to study in 8 schools in my 12 yrs of primary education(now that I'm into my master's , all that seems to be primary) n each of the schools teachin me sumthings in life...lots of techers,scores of friends...I've relished every single day I've gone to school,evn the exams coz xams at this level r such a drag...3 hours n 100 marks n epics to write...
The recess,play time n the assembly...I guess I remember my 11 n 12 th classes more than any thing else but my Years at De Paul,Kalpetta n Bhavan's,Calicut.....r worth saying...De Paul was the best-its true,guys....my concept of an ideal school life....
Class X was boring...studies,tution,tension,first boards....I thought they wud kill me...

What did one know of the complexities of life then??? of Guys n gals(boys n girls then)...of love??? We respected our teachers,listened to them,did homework,played crazy games...wrote exams,brought parents to PTA meetings?(atcually we din bring them,they came)...n wore smart uniforms....We were actually scared of exams n used to study though not daily...Nowadays I wait 4 the study hols to open my books...
My best memories r those of recitations n elecutions n all culturals...Annual days,Christmas celebrations,Onam pookalams...

Life sure was simple then....

But then there was no bunkin classes,no gang of friends to head to the canteen with,no gals to gossip with and of course....no guys to flirt with. All that came wth college...A sample of the Life outside...of the real World where u r destined to spent the rest of ur life time...

The innocence was lost,the cute smile lost......eyes full of hope...light....n joy.... all lost forever....
Now the eyes r clouded...the twinkle in the eyes in lost,the spring in the steps is lost...I no longer walk...I run...always in a hurry....there is tension always...what to do next,where to go next n whom to call next....Studies,Jobs,Family,Responsibilities.......on those tiny shoulders which once carried a bag full of books...

LOVE - JUS A 4 LETTER WORD


I suppose it is the most discussed topic in the world n one that most number of ppl hav written bout...

So,what exactly is Love??? Wanna hear my definition..........

Well,to love someone is to care....so much 4 him/her evn more than yourself...u find urself living 4 a person...livin to see him/her smile...to love someone is to live 4 them...

I believe that Love is divine...It is not that u can love only a person at a time...We all love many people but in different ways n wth different intensities...n once u love a person there is no sayin no to it...the love goes on...n on...till ur last breath...no matter whether u want it or not...




Love

Is

For

Ever



And love is also bout...


Never expectin anythin,


Never demandin anythin,


and Never being possesive...bcoz it always spoils things...as far as I know...


Sharing n caring 4 each other is what Love is truly about...

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Almost all the guys I know hav had some bitter experience with love at least once in their Life time...They hav been rejected,left for better ones or decieved n cheated...Is this what leaves a gr8 impression n gives guys a good opinion bout all females in general???

Maybe gals r wiser in this area...Atleast the gals I know never reveal their true feelings unless they get to know a person well...They do flirt like guys but hav failed to get caught,lost in blind love n then atlast stop believin in love...
I know a certain guy who claims to have had his way wth girls...never fallen in love but I always tell him...never be so confident,tera number aayega...One day U too will see the world with eyes dripping wth admiration 4 a certain person...

Chances & Choices...


I always believed that Its by chance that things happen in life...But now I realize that was a misconception....Life gives you chances and Choices...U r always given options....Its the choice u make which affects your life...The ball is always in your court...its u who decide how to play...

Its your actions that matter...your words that count...It is u who hold the reins...watched over by God...who holds ur hand n helps u to walk...catches u while u fall...n is beside u thru out...

I've heard that Life is all bout being able to FORGET n FORGIVE...I don know if everyone is able to do it but I practice it as much as possible as this is what I tend to tell others...But is this always possible??? I don know for sure...

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Today is an unexpected holiday for me...A guy in my college met with an accident n he's gone...jus like that...The least the college authorities cud do is to declare a holiday today...I haven seen this guy nor do I know who he is...but I pray 4 his soul now...Let him Rest in peace...

This is Life,right??? very very unexpected...one moment u r here n the next...Khuda jaane??? Is there somethin u can guarentee....there is no guarentee to anything on earth...So,Its my policy to enjoy while I can...Life's too short to think bout it n repent later....Whatever I do,I ll never giv myself a chance to regret it...I am gonna keep myself that busy that I ll never time to think n regret things done...But then I am a person who always procrastinates...n is very very lazy...so most of the time I ll be sittin n day dreamin n repenting,countin my losses...regretin things...Stuff I did,said n thought....

Friday, August 8, 2008

Today happens to be my Birthday...n I'm real glad...Everythin went well today...The greatest pleasure was recievin a call from my best friend at skool...We had been out of touch 4 long...n it made me happy to spk to her...She's workin now n was tellin me bout her monotonous career life...I havent been fortunate enuf to kick start my career...but I hate to leave this simple life...My student life...Its been 17 lo..ng years since I've been learnin n I intend to learn thru out life...That's another matter...
I consider myself lucky to have few but great friends...It is this week I learnt the truth that havin many friends doesn't count,its those who care that counts...
A testi to the greatest of all relationships.......Friendship...Its pure,special n ........ somethin more...
Love u all,my dear friends......

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I read Books…I am a voracious reader…but what hav I gained frm them? An enlarged vocabulary, a capability to form sentences…understand them…n read bout ppl,their lives…I can hardly wait to finish a book so that I can start another…n once I start reading, I don put a book down until I finish…can’t the book wait???
N most of the books I read end on a happy note…All is usually well…Fairy tales r the best…with superb endings…”and they lived happily ever after”…but, my personal opinion is that all authors r great…their ability to keep a person involved n interested 4 such a long period is amazing…
I tend to run away from responsibilities ...I am scared of commitment because it involves a great deal of responsibilities…duties…

Y do ppl dream??? Do all dreams come true??? If they don, then y do ppl dream? If they can’t make their dream come true…they shouldn’t dream…

What is attachment??? What r Relationships??? Can anyone tell me the answer to this??? What is the unseen force of bonding btwn 2 individuals…be it a mother and a child, a child n his siblings, friends…a husband n a wife??? What is the power that attracts them n holds them together???

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I had a hellish Xperience in class when my sir taught us to dissect a chick embryo....Yuck!!! Scooping out its retinal cells,brain n pluckin out its kidneys...jus mind blowing...I tried not to puke and ended up crying instead...I was a vegeterian till the day and now I'm a vegan...no more milk,cheese n stuff..I cant imagine how ppl manage to each chicken n beef n pork???

I cant think of the day when i myself would have to do the practicals...I'd hav to do that blindfolded...

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Life's Funny...It makes u laugh,cry,frown n gasp...in awe at the wonderful things God has kept in store for u...
But there r times in my life when I wonder Why was I born??? Whats the purpose of me being here??? n here I am .... seekin an answer to this question...Why am I here on Earth???

Saturday, June 21, 2008

I ve grown up…But in sum ways I am still a child …somewhere sometimes I tend to lose control over life…I need ppl to help me out…help me decide…help me choose…the right things,the right path…the right words…

It is true that words once spoken cannot be taken back…n words always go right to their destination…they hurt…they heal…they can make u feel rotten n sumtimes better…It is always the choice of words which is important…
I wanna be free….I know that exactly is what my problem is…I tend to try n break loose….everywhere…I get frustrated when restrictions r imposed on me…I like to do things I like…as I choose…when I want to do them…Ppl who try to make me listen hav always failed…miserably…I am an individual…unique…n I believe special…Evry one is…in their own way…

I like being in control over my own life…Everyone else. KEEP OUT…Trespassers will be ignored…

A friend told me…”Everythin in life has a reason”…n isn’t it true…in every sense…n Whatevr happens to you is always 4 ur own good…
The most difficult thing in Life is Makin/Takin decisions…I take such an awful lot of time to make up my mind…
And I know I shud not regret any of these decisions I took but I do…most of the time…Its all second thoughts n re-thinkin…n I return to square one with a hell lot of options in my mind but no final answer…

Why do I succumb to my temptations…while clearly knowin I’m gonna get into trouble sooner or later??? Y do I still find myself finding innumerable excuses 4 my faults???

Friday, June 13, 2008

Religion

What is religion??? Why r ppl separated based on religions???

Isn’t the Power they all believe in..hav faith in…the same??? Wont Allah listen to what I hav to say? Wont He listen to me if I pray to him??? Wont Jesus ???
I still havn’t decided whether I believe in Idol worship…but I believe that God is everywhere…within Me…U n everyone else…He is the goodness in us…He is the Love in us….We jus create idols to reinforce the idea of existence of God…

This is something I love…

“I love my God because he gives me the freedom to deny him..”-Rabindranath Tagore…

God is not going to punish me if I don pray…atleast I don think so…Or else how wud the atheists live in this world???

My current religion is HUMANITY…the religion all on earth belong to…believe in…
The world is rotten n so r the ppl here….they make me sick sometimes….makes me wish I wasn’t born…
But there r moments I enjoy…Love to live…njoy Life…the company of the ppl around me…

The post without a titile....

Why do writings need a title???
This is my e-diary…
The Mad Mad world of Lakshmi Mohan…btb, who is Lakshmi Mohan??? Its jus that the world knows her like that…u go ask randomly to a few hundred ppl in the world if they know Lakshmi Mohan…U won get a Positive response of evn 1%...
There are millions of ppl in the world…u see ppl walkin out, workin, singin, dancing…involved in monotonous routines all around there…there r in the least bothered bout what goes about in the world around them…Its jus being born…complete 60-80 yrs of LIFE on Earth n leave…to where, u may ask…evn I hope to find an answer to it someday….which makes me come to this point…Is there Life after Death??? R u given a chance to re-do ur mistakes???